Grant McLellan

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Wed, 30 Jan 2008 18:57:59 GMT

Thought I'd point that out

The Mighty Boosh

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 02:17:11 GMT

For a while now someone I talk to on MSN has been wanting me to check out a show called The Mighty Boosh, and that's what I did...okay so I only saw some of the first episode...I really did not know what to make of it.

Yet I often try to watch new shows, I'll maybe try to give this show a bit more of a chance

The Cathouse

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 00:50:17 GMT

I've wanted to go to this place for a while now, I've just never had the oppourtunity to do so, well I hope to rectify that

If anyone is planning on going there soon, please let me know because I want to join in. However I'd prefer it to be with a group of people rather than just one person, I feel much better with a group of people there than I would myself or just with one other person

With the accent post out of the way

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 02:05:34 GMT

I really need to socialise better in the GA, the most recent meet was probably the first time since I came back in which I at least...well with some help attempted to do so, how successful I was I don't know, but then again I'm probably thinking too early on that

Basically I want to be friends with everyone in the GA...even with those people who don't go to the meets but I knew from back in my previous stint with the group, at least I think I'm making a start on that

I'll be honest socialising has never really been my strongest asset, which I guess you might find a little odd or something given I talk about it a lot both on my blog and outside it, but I relise it's one of those things that I really need to do

About my accent

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 00:01:34 GMT

Even if I have brought this up before, I feel I need to say this.

To anyone who questions my accent, if they feel it's not right...deal with it okay?, just please learn to accept it and me or for what it is okay?, it's the accent I've spoken with for as long as I can remember

Please I'm serious about this, okay I'll admit maybe a Scottish person who sounds American isin't exactly right, but it's what I am, and you all just have to accept that, no more of this people will get offended by my accent BS.

I don't like to get angry on my blog, but in this case I've got no choice. All I'm asking is for people to accept me for who I am despite my accent, seriously that should be a non-factor.

My hope is that this whole thing over my accent will stop now, it's gone on too long now and I for one hope I won't have to, of course given what happened at the most recent GA meet I was at...I don't know but I hope things will improve for the better on this

Making friends...

Sun, 28 Oct 2007 12:35:33 GMT

I've made it no secret that I want to make friends and improve my social life. I mean I really need to improve it so badly. I've at least tried to do so with...well how successful it's worked for me right now I don't know

But right now there is something that concerns me about making friends and that is will they have had...problems with the GA

Now what I mean by that is that for the past few months I've been talking to this girl who found my MSN address on a MySpace bulletin, it's come to a point now where she talks to me nearly every day, but then again I guess that's not a bad thing, rarely anyone talks to me on MSN so I don't mind it.

Problem is that a while after I started talking to her I found out she had problems with a GA member who told me that the girl who talks to me on MSN is basically not as nice as she claims to be. But I kept on talking to her despite that, it makes me wonder if any new people I talk to on MSN are going to be like this, having problems with the GA in some way.

In addition last night when I decided to go home from the GA meet I met some ex GA people who I had not seen since February back when I went over to someone elses house, they let me join them but about a minute later I decided to take a photo of a street performer and once I did that and turned around, I could not find them, it seemed to me they just left me when I took the photo.

Look I know it's best not to make friends with people who might not exactly be good friends or really be who they claim to be or stuff like that, but with my case I pretty much have to make friends, I hope people understand this

I've got problems

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 18:20:56 GMT

But you know what, I doubt anyone would care because to me they would find them very trivial.

I mean I could go on and on about some things that have bugged me for a while now, but no one would want to listen because either it's the same thing they've heard over and over again, or they just don't know anything about it.

What am I trying to say?...I wish I could say, but the truth is if I did then I'd be back to where I was when I got banned from the GA, and before you start jumping to conclusions, it might not be what you think it is. I mean I'll admit I can be a one track mind, but that does not mean other things can bother me as well.

There's more to me that what you think there is, I just think people don't bother to relise that because they are used to one aspect of me...or something like that.

I've tried to make an improvment, I've tried not to do the same things that got me in trouble to begin with, but how can I go on like this without admitting things that I fear could ostricise me from everything.

I'm up for something

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 20:18:11 GMT

I need to go out more, I really reaaly need to. So I'm asking anyone if I can join them on something, if it's a night out in he town, I'll do it. If it's to someone elses house to hang out at, I'll do it and so on

I'm desperate to socialise now

Well, there goes my chance for a night out

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 18:17:18 GMT

I was looking forward to going to something called Club Noir with someone I've been talking to on MSN for the past few months.

But that looks like it's not going to happen now since that person has decided to do something else

What am I going to do now, I want to go on nights out like everyone else does, but no one ever lets me join them, this is something I should have done long ago...why is it so difficult to do

Why don't I go out much

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 15:18:00 GMT

If there is one thing I would really like to do more is go out more

My big problem is that as much as I would like to join friends on nights out, I just can't seem to do so because I figure if I ask to do so, they will just say no

The truth is I'd rather be invited to something rather than ask to join a group of people on a night out

Am I too naive?

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 18:00:37 GMT

Seriously, I often think I am...maybe more than I think I am

I like being back in the GA

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 12:24:52 GMT

Seriously I really do, I mean being back at least gives me more things to do...like going out more often and acutally being with other people...I wish I could do it more often thought, I mean do more than just meets. But I could say the same thing about the SYT people but that's a different matter.

As for being back in the GA...well I have to say I think I've done okay since I came back, I've tried not to do any of the things that got me kicked out in the first place...even if it means not getting to speak my mind as much as I did. I feel even if I did that outside of the GA, they would not be happy...I don't think anyone would be happy with them...even if my opinions are not bad in anyway

Leaving college

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 13:55:32 GMT

I've decided not to go back to college. The reason why is because they feel it's best for me considering I had so much trouble trying to get an HNC qualification (which I did get eventually).

I can understand why they feel that, but to be honest I really hope I'm doing the right thing here. What I plan on doing is work experience and hopefully that will lead me to working, I mean I've never had a job before so I guess I'd better do it.

I like posting pictures on my blog

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 20:15:03 GMT

It's something I've never done before, but I like to do it...I only kinda wish I could put pictures of me partying with friends or just doing other stuff with friends be it people I know from the GA or the SYT or others...something I never get to do

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 21:05:57 GMT

Just continuing to try out the camera on my new phone

The Garage (I've never been there)

Where the SYT is located

Entrance to the SYT

Walkway where SYT entrance is

The Cathouse (I've also never been there)

Going back to SYT again

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 19:45:01 GMT

Once again I'm taking the week classes at the SYT which start next month

However I've also become aware of something else I could do as well which from what I know is not far from the SYT building

I'll say more on that later

Back from Wales

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 16:32:41 GMT

Recently I just got back from a camping holiday in Wales, and during it I took some photos there, here are some...

Just a landscape photo I took

A view of Portmeirion (where The Prisioner was filmed)

Another photo of Portmeirion

Trying out the camera on my new phone

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 17:30:35 GMT

Thought I'd post up some pictures I took just for fun

The follwing are from when I went to Edinburgh a few weeks ago

And a purchase I made today

You know what sucks?

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 14:03:34 GMT

I honestly don't know, it could be one thing but then again it could be a lot of things.

Even if I knew what sucked would I want to talk about it...knowing me I probably would, but then again I probably would not just incase I gave off the impression I would turn back into what I was like back in 2005, at least to maybe whoever reads this.

Maybe I'm over-thinking this, but I don't know

Something I need to mention

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 14:34:24 GMT

Even though I enjoy being back in the GA, something has come up which I guess I should have expected...and it's the fact that I seem to come off as a sort of outsider.

Now I know I've just got back in after so long so I guess I can understand that, but I hope that not only can I hang out with/interact with the GA people at meets, but outside of them as well, I just don't know where to start on that

I experienced a similer thing with the SYT people, but I don't really seem them as much, plus I think the fact that because I have Asperger Syndrome and I doubt they know much about it (expect for the staff there of course) kinda intimidated them in some way, but I just don't know. However I get along well with them despite that

I feels good to be back

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 11:57:18 GMT

Last night I went to a GA meet, first meet I had been to since November 2005

I think it went well

Let's talk about the SYT...

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 18:34:47 GMT

I remember 2 years ago, back when everyone on the net was making fun of me I was looking to go to an acting/drama school. I remember checking out the RSAMD, but relising how hard (and expensive) it would be to get in. Then someone brought the SYT to my attention and I decided to check that out. I can remember when I first went there, they had just started operating in their new building in the Merchants Square area and it's not really changed much since then, now they rent out the rooms they have for various functions.

I'll admit the at the start I was a little hesitent at what I did at the SYT, but I stuck with it.

I'll maybe say more later, I just felt like talking about my experiences at SYT since it's been nearly 2 years since I first went there

What a day that was

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 21:07:18 GMT

We got to Edinburgh, took part in the parade on the Royal Mile, and we even walked passed the Queen

A parade on the Royal Mile

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 19:35:51 GMT

That's what I'm doing this Saturday in Edinurgh...and I'll be dressed as a businessman as well

SYT event over with

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 23:55:54 GMT

The first one is over with and...well it was different than what I initially expected it to be, but I think I learned something from it.

Also the party after it was good

Next up is the Edinburgh thing, which I should point out is volentary, which means I don't have to do it if I don't want to, but we'll see on that